jpjc broke up with me

IT'S SO OVER I DIDN'T GET ANYTHING FROM APPLYING HP THERE... Well, shortlists should be over by now. THIS IS JUST ME BEING NEEDLESSLY DRAMATIC AND EMOTIONAL 😭 😭 😭 Apologies for the second emo post LOL. The title is slightly misleading because I hallucinated the whole process probably ☠️ ☠️ I knew I was already being delusional about the other jcs I had applied for (and have been ghosted or rejected without interview), but to be honest, I actually had a lot of hope for jp 😭. After my interviews at ny, asr and tj respectively, it had made me emboldened I would get a new interview to prepare for. Probably a bit too egoistical but I say with honesty now that I don't expect much good news in the days to come. Of course I know my academics were lacking so I tried to make up for it in the other things I submitted but the rest was history... I'm so embarrassed to say that I actually started thinking of CCAs and how I would want to continue band in jpjc and try to impress (using this term loosely) people with my work-in-progress vibrato on my flute ☠️☠️. I'll get over it eventually. My coping mechanism is history. I spend most of my days reading about history. I spend my recesses excited over reading or writing something history-related. Whenever I have a bad day at school, I just think of recess where I'll get to work on my next history post. When I go to sleep, I think of the next topic I should cover ☠️ ☠️.